This could be embarrassing!

Fat Thoughts:

Okay, I knew I was gaining weight.  A person can only be in denial for so long, right?  Now I am going to post some pictures.  Somehow pictures have a way of telling the truth better than a mirror can do.  I think because in a mirror we can stand up taller and pull our shoulders back and suck in our tummy and convince ourselves “it ain’t so bad.”  and then…we see a picture of ourselves. THIS is the picture that did it for me. ACCCCK!

After the picture was taken I took one look and said, “I look like a pig.”  Troy said, Well…….  At least he was being honest.

Let’s back up a few years. 

I have taught nutrition and counseled people on nutrition for over twenty –five years, even longer than that.  We are not fanatics but eat healthfully.  In all honesty I think the weight gain started when I wrecked my knee on the trampoline.  It sure changed my activity level and I never gained back my metabolism after that.  I went seven years before having a surgery on it and that was in 2000.  When Sarah got married that year, I weighed in at 125 lbs. and I watched what I ate and was doing physical therapy to get down to that weight from October to December.  I couldn’t work out because of having the surgery in October. 

Since that time, almost every spring and summer I would get out and walk up to the high school, a mile away, then walk the track for a mile, start the spring out with walking up and down the bleachers and increase a rep every day I walked.  By the end of the summer I was doing about thirty reps every other day. In the winters I would walk/run on my treadmill, use my rebounder mini trampoline, do weight loss videos, use exercise bands.  I kept changing up the exercises but couldn’t get myself to be consistent through out the winters.  Still, it was discouraging because with all that exercise every year I would gain 2 to 2 1/2 lbs.   (time for another fat picture)

So this shows a rather thick waist.  Remember I used to wear a size six and size small tops. Back when I was thirty five or so.  Hmmm…that’s been about 25 years ago.  Maybe I don’t want to go that far back.  I remember thinking I was getting fat when I weighed 120, that’s when the fat started showing up and I didn’t want to wear a two piece swim suit anymore. But NOW if I weighed 120 lbs.  wow….that would be great!

 

This picture fishing shows me with the coolest army pants that we got at Fort Riley which quickly became my favorite fishing pants, BUT, when I tried them on before purchasing them and that was only two years ago, well, I could button them all the way up and now I can only button the last two buttons.  Deceptively covered up by my loose shirt but you can see it if you look.

Alrighty then, that’s enough FAT pictures.  I’m too embarrassed to post the show it all pictures that I took on Monday September 26th.  I will someday soon though. 

Wait…..here’s one I took that shows that belly hanging out; and I used to like this shirt.

Okay so it wasn’t so bad when I moved from size 8 to 10 and then I lied to myself and said you can’t tell with women’s clothes what size you really need as I moved from a 10 to a twelve.  Then at the end of August when we went to Door County and none of the size 12 pants would fit and I had to buy a 14 and I told Sarah, these are cut really small, so I need a bigger size.  That was the last straw.